Fixing My Eyes

30 May

Look full in His wonderful face,
And the things of earth will grow strangely dim,
In the light of His glory and grace.

So….. I’m leaving Tennessee and moving to New Orleans. I’ve never been there, and the thought of living somewhere other than Tennessee is pretty terrifying. There are so many things that are still unknown in this process, and I’m having to just let go of control. (surely this is God’s doing) : )

As of right now, I think I’ll be working with CHART (Center for Hazards Assessment and Response Technologies).

There are a lot of environmental issues going on in New Orleans that are being swept under the rug and ignored. I’ll be working as an investigate journalist, giving a voice to the people who are being affected by the issues, shedding light on these issues, and informing people of a way to help.

Pretty awesome huh? I’m really excited about it!

However, as I think about moving to New Orleans and working as an investigative journalist, there are a lot of fears and anxieties surfacing in my life that are competing for my attention, my time, my energy…. my everything. I could sit here and type out a list of all of the fears, issues, and concerns I have… but it would never end, and I’d be giving those fears more power over me.

Change is so hard.

Why is that though? I know that God is right here with me. I know that God will not forsake me if I keep focused on him. I know God will bring me through anything. I know these things, but I don’t act like it. I let these fears and anxieties rule my life. That’s me not putting trust in God. That’s me breaking eye contact with him. 

I never want to take my eyes off of His. They are beautiful, they are perfect, they never fail me. His eyes dim the things of this world that distract me. If I really focus on him, these fears will become completely irrelevant.

So I have nothing to be afraid of. I’m going to fix my eyes.

I’m looking forward to things growing strangely dim.


3 Responses to “Fixing My Eyes”

  1. chadpittman May 30, 2011 at 10:58 pm #

    Let it be so, for me as well : ) well said.

  2. Donna May 31, 2011 at 12:57 am #

    Lauren, I look forward to following you adventure and yes, keep your eyes on God and trust Him always!

  3. LeeAnn June 1, 2011 at 12:19 am #

    amazing. i look forward to hearing your stories as i pray you through the next year. it will be amazing.

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