Letting go.

3 Jun

Today was clean out the house for a yard sale day. It’s crazy how much stuff you can accumulate over a short period of time. It’s also crazy how attached you can get to the smallest stuff.

For example.. I have this little solid purple shirt that I wore with my campus ministry during intramural games. There is nothing on it. I think I got it from Walmart.. and it’s not even a likeable purple. But, when I went to throw it in the yard sale pile, my heart sank a bit.

This shirt stood for so many good times out on the football, soccer, and softball fields. It stood for the friendships I formed at PSF, the late night games I dreaded so much but ended up having a blast. It stood for those late night runs to dairy queen after a game, and all the laughter we’d share.

Good grief.

All of a sudden throwing out this purple shirt was equated to throwing out all of these memories, all of these friendships. It was as if I was stomping on all of these memories. Some how this shirt became like Woody or Buzz getting thrown in the attic.. betrayed and completely abandoned.

Why can’t I let go?

There are so many things in life that comfort me. There are so many things in life that have stayed constant for as long as I can remember, but a lot of those things are going to change. A lot of those comforts are going to be left behind when I go to Louisiana. A lot of things are going to fade, or get thrown out as I move forward in my life.

I guess right now I’m just clinching tight to everything I can. Every little thing that comforts me, reminds me of who I am, and this journey I’ve taken while in Murfreesboro and in college. I’m clinging to my friends and family… scared that I just can’t get enough of them.

So where will my comfort be when I leave? The only one I’m not leaving behind is God.

But why do I use the word only? Like…. well I guess I’ve only got God here with me.. ohh well, maybe I’ll make it..

NOOO!!!!!

The God who created the universe and everything beautiful will be right there with me as I enter this new phase of my life. God will be introducing me to new purple shirts : ))))) God will be making things new in every aspect of my life.

God has gotten me through every transition thus far… he is the master of making things new. With His help I’ll be able to let go of the things I’m clinging to so tightly to comfort me, and the things that keep me in a static place. With His help I’ll cut these ties and be able to move forward.

All of this reminds me of an awesome song I sang in church a couple of Sundays ago.

You make all things new, and I will follow you forward!

SO if God is pulling me in this direction, it’s ok to let go of some things. Just gotta follow him forward.

Needless to say, that purple shirt is sitting in my trunk, ready to head to the yard sale on Saturday : )

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One Response to “Letting go.”

  1. LeeAnn June 3, 2011 at 10:36 am #

    Totally get it, in a totally different way. A friend of mine recently sent me a beautiful message: What has been must come apart before what is to be can come together. ~Anonymous

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